In A Very Good Mood
evening we had a few friends for dinner and as usual; very heated
conversations filled the whole dining room. Everybody was talking
all at once; everyone was happy, driving in his or her point
of view, and all were quite happy and excited.
for me, with me being hard of hearing, I cannot participate
in all those debates; I am limited just to look and I see it
as in Silent Movies. When there are a lot of people talking,
my hearing aid acts as a funnel to a bottle; I receive all the
sounds all at once! Imagine!!! I can hear well enough when a
person talks to me directly.
of the guests wanted to hear from me some of my life's stories.
I told him some of my war adventures, about Nazi Prison Camps,
my activities in the French Underground during the Nazi Occupation,
and so on. He looked around at my paintings on the walls and
said, "I don't see all the horror and suffering you went through
in your art." Well, he happened to be a psychologist. He was
very surprised not to see any trace of trauma or suffering in
my paintings. "One would never guess," he added.
remember once in Northern Caucausus, in August 1942, in between
battles there was a short stop. The stops were most precious
moment in the world. Long marches, day and night, battles, attacks,
retreat, lack of food, and hardest of all, lack of sleep - so,
any stops were gifts from heaven. I went a few yards away from
my war comrades and lay down in the grass. I pulled out one
grass and started chewing it. It had a sweet taste. I stretched
all my limbs, and I enjoyed so much just to be lying on the
grass without any movement.
looked to the distance above high grass, seeing a few houses
far away, and there was an overwhelming silence and peace which
enveloped me. I forgot about war and worries; I felt so happy
and I wanted it to last longer. The smell of the wild herbs,
and the cricketing of insects filled the air and me with such
went through many, many experiences in life, and few of them
stay as sharp in my memory...as sharp as shining diamond. This
was one of these exceptional experiences. Hence,
a man in very good mood. Forget the worries and live your life.